Nano Wrimo

There are people who knew they wanted to be professional writers for as long as they can remember. I am not one of those people. In college, inspired by an Elvis Costello song while walking through campus, I began writing a novel in longhand. I filled about a dozen legal pads before abandoning the manuscript, because I realized I was using it more for procrastination during mid-terms than as a serious attempt at personal expression. I don’t think I’ve earnestly tried writing any fiction since, though one item on my list, #19 – Write a novel, would seem to indicate that I still have unresolved issues about it.

Soonafter college, I briefly considered trying to make a living as a writer; after writing a column for a local monthly magazine in the early 90′s, I quickly gave up that idea. I found that when writing was my job, when it was a chore, my enjoyment of it quickly diminished. I only enjoyed it if I didn’t care if anyone was reading it, and I could write whatever I wanted. (This is a large part of the reason I started this blog, probably a large part of the reason why anyone starts a blog.)

So, while I haven’t much wanted to be a professional writer, I have always wanted to write. I have sporadically kept a journal of some sort for most of my life, and when given an opportunity to write about something I like or am interested in, I will usually take it, paid or not. My biggest problem is that those opportunities rarely present themselves to me, and I rarely present myself to them. In other words, I don’t write as much as I would like to.

Ask any writer, go to any workshop, read any book about writing, and they will all tell you that the most important thing about writing is to get in the habit of writing. Set aside a specific time each day and just write. Don’t worry about what is going on the page, just let the words flow. Don’t worry about the quality, just make the time to write. As you get in the habit, you will start to develop as a writer, and the quality will improve over time. In other words, if you write regularly, you will write regularly.

Surprisingly, this seems to be the hardest thing about writing. In my case, nothing could be more true.

I seem to write only when inspired to say something. I often struggle, as it has been so long since I have tried to string a few words together, that the act of writing seems to be a burden in itself. (For an illustration of this, just look in the sidebar and see how infrequently I update this blog.)

Many of the items on my list require that I write. If I were to finish all of them, they could probably fill a good sized nano_participant_icon_largebookshelf. In order to finish them, therefore, I need to develop the habit of writing. I had been considering this for a few days, trying to figure out what time of day works best for me (apparently none), when I heard about National Novel Writing Month. The idea, if you haven’t heard about it, is to write a novel in 30 days. It begins on November 1st, and if you write 50,000 words by November 30th, you will “win.” Last year, nearly 80,000 people signed up, and 13,000 finished their novel. The idea is not to produce a publishable manuscript, but to just sit down, start writing, and finish. As it states on the website:

Because of the limited writing window, the ONLY thing that matters in NaNoWriMo is output. It’s all about quantity, not quality. The kamikaze approach forces you to lower your expectations, take risks, and write on the fly.

Make no mistake: You will be writing a lot of crap. And that’s a good thing. By forcing yourself to write so intensely, you are giving yourself permission to make mistakes. To forgo the endless tweaking and editing and just create. To build without tearing down.

I’m not normally inclined to participate in these kinds of things, but this seemed like an opportunity I could not pass by. I will be traveling quite a bit in November, and the nearly 28 hours I will be spending on airplanes seems like as good a time as any to focus on writing a novel. I have little idea what I will be writing about, but I have a week to plan. Hopefully, when I board the plane to Los Angeles on November 1st, I will have enough of an outline to begin knocking out my first draft. If nothing else, I will at least be writing regularly again, if only for a month.

1995 AL Division Series, Game 5

The Yanks jumped out to an early lead, and I knew it was over. A part of me was hoping the Yankees would hang on so I wouldn’t have to spend any more money or time driving back and forth to Seattle. By the end of seven and a half, the Yanks were up by two, and Cone looked unstoppable. In the bottom of the eighth, a glimmer of hope streaked over the wall in right center, off the bat of Ken Griffey, Jr., cutting the lead to one. But, when Cone got to two outs by striking out Edgar, it looked like it was over, again.

Then Cone’s control got away from him; he walked Tino, let Buhner single to center, and walked Rodriguez to fill the bases. The crowd went crazy. My friend said later it was as if the crowd willed what happened next. Cone filled up the count, and then threw a pitch in the dirt to walk Doug Strange and tie the score. Cone was pulled, and Rivera got the next batter.

The Big Unit, Randy Johnson, on one day of rest, took the mound in relief in the ninth. I heard his name announced over the public address system, and was certain I misheard. There was no way Piniella was going to put him in after seven innings two nights before. When he began his walk to the infield, the crowd rose and screamed to their savior. Randy would deliver them. The first pitch he threw, I discovered later, was 93 mph. In a drama the ancient Greek poets could not have sung better, he took out the top of their order, striking out Wade Boggs, and getting Bernie Williams and Paul O’Neill to pop up.

The Yankees put Blackjack McDowell, also with only a day’s rest, on the mound to counter the big man. On the big screen in center played the birth scene from Rocky 2 when Adrienne tells Rocky there’s only one thing she wants him to do now: win. (Complete with Burgess Meredith asking Rocky what he was waitin’ fer) The Rocky theme played to a cheering crowd as the M’s got the lead off man aboard, but failed to bring him home.

In the tenth, Johnson got three outs with four batters by striking out the side. One of his pitches was clocked at 99 mph. The M’s went through the bottom of the order and did not score.

The eleventh looked to be the end of the season yet again. Fernandez doubled, went to third on a sacrifice, and then scored on a hit to left by Pat Kelly. Piniella visited the mound and told Randy not to worry about it, just end the inning. After striking out Ruben Sierra and Mattingly, he moped to the dugout, believing he had ruined the season for his team.

The Dome crew queued up John Belushi’s inspirational “Over? It’s not over!!” scene from Animal House, but it did little more to the crowd than make it giggle uncomfortably. But, maybe there was hope. After all, batters 2, 3, and 4 were due up, maybe there was a chance.

Joey Cora pulled a two-strike drag bunt down the first base line and evaded Mattingly’s sweep tag by diving head first under the glove. Griffey knocked Cora over to third with a single to center field. No outs, men on the corners, AL Batting Champ Edgar Martinez at the plate. Though looking at it now, it seems almost obvious what would happen next, it was hardly a sure thing at the time. After all, Blackjack struck him out in the ninth. But, in what has since been named by Mariner fans “The Double”, Edgar screamed a shot down the left field line. Gerald Davis seemed to lose it in the corner, but I could not tell for sure. I was looking at the third base coach. He was jumping up and down and windmilling his arms. I put my hand to my mouth and whispered to myself, barely audible over the thunderous crowd, “They’re sending him. They’re sending Griffey.”

Though he claims that he looked at the coach, Junior never had the intention of stopping. Perfectly hitting the back of each bag and cutting the corners just so, he beat the throw by several feet. The M’s won, just like they had so many times in September, with a come-from-behind in their last at-bat.

I knew leaving the Dome that night that it was the best baseball game I had ever seen, in person or on TV. What I didn’t realize was how many other people were watching that night, and what it did for baseball. The next day at work, people who I would never have thought to watch a sporting event came up to me and asked what it was like to actually be there. For the first time in a long while, people were actually standing around water coolers and coffee pots talking about the game of baseball, not the greedy owners or the ungrateful players. They were talking about the game. The audience was back, and the strike was forgiven.

The M’s went on to lose the ALCS to Cleveland, whose players were rude, whiny, and acting like the M’s didn’t belong in the same league. It was a stark contrast to the way the Yankees behaved. Surprisingly, though, it was the Yankees who seemed to irk Mariner fans the most. Most M’s fans began hating the Yankees, and were dreaming up some sort of a one-sided rivalry. This was when I started to become a Yankee fan. I was so happy to be able to see those games, and game five in particular, that I felt nothing but gratitude towards both teams. Any team that could be on either side of that contest deserved respect, and I knew I could never hate them.

When I moved to New York, many of my friends in the Pacific Northwest sneeringly asked me if I was going to be a Yankee fan. Without hesitation, I would answer, “I already am.”